my old best friend from elementary school's leaving for the states this year. we used to talk on the phone all day, talking about stupid stuff like the powerpuff girls and teen titans, and i used to poke fun at her height because she had always been shorter than i was. we drifted apart in the last few years and we barely talk now, so i was pretty surprised to find a note from her on my desk today, asking me to write her something before she leaves.
thinking about what to write makes my heart hurt. it's like sending off a huge chunk of my life and i don't think i'm prepared to say goodbye to someone who's been such a big part of my childhood.
and i still don't know what to write even though i have a billion things i want to say to her. things i should have said years before but never did, things i should tell her before it's too late and she's gone to some place i can't follow. but the words are stuck in my throat and i'm having a hard time trying to sort through all those emotions and thoughts, among other things.
it's a strange feeling, to miss someone when they're not really gone yet.
i'm shit at this sentimental kind of thing.
