"but i'm a creep, i'm a weirdo;
what the hell am i doing here?
...... i don't belong here."
- creep by radiohead
i'm in a love/hate relationship with myself and everyone else lately. it's not pretty. i try to fit in and mold myself around everyone else and i succeed for a while, but in the end realization hits me (that i just don't, can't, fit in, no matter how hard i try to) and i can't lie to myself anymore and i'm back at square one; wallowing in intense self-pity and hating the world for making me a reject. i don't like being alone.
build it up and break it down, again and again and again, until there's nothing left.
i fucked myself up so bad no one knows how to fix me anymore, not even me.
