today i feel like a fucking failure.
not because i'm not capable; i know i'm capable, but i'm also lazy - horribly so - and that's the only thing that's keeping me from ever reaching my full potential as a capable human being. i put off work, i procrastinate, i find reasons to justify not doing things. even at the risk of ruining my entire future, i still have no incentive to get off my ass and be serious for once because i'm indulgent like that.
guess the masochist in me wins again.
